Sorry to tell you this,but I believe if those are happening in life what you should do is put the cards down go study and get a job. I was also a outcast all I did was play xbox 360 and one day it finally hit me to stop hitting fake people with guns and start getting serious in life because I knew that playing games should only be a hobbie not my life. I really doubt that you will be making a living doing this. So you don't need to take me advice, because it is just my opinion.