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I don't know really... I just need to talk.
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Do you ever just sit there, thinking, staring in to space, lying in your bed at night, like I'm doing right now, reminiscing about what life was like a year ago? or even as little as a couple of months ago? Compared to what it is like now? The new additions in your life. The new friends you've met. The old friends getting back in touch. The people who were never there back then, but are now. The people who promised they'd always be there for you, but now... It's like you don't exist to them. The times you would always have something planned. Full of motivation, enthusiasm, excitement, energy! Planning for the future! "Let's do this! And this! And that! And oh let's definitely go there!". Now... You can't find the energy to step out the house. Oh how times change. Remember that person you loved? But never told? How everything was perfect, to suddenly... not. Remember the look on their face when they saw you. Remember the smile you couldn't take off your face everytime you heard their name. So many memories, so many good times. Oh how times change. It's amazing how fast things come and go from your life. Some last a lifetime. Some last only in the moment. Life could be better right now. I wish it could be. To be honest I wish I could rewind a little. It would be nice to have those old friends back. It would be nice to feel wanted again. It would be incredible to see the smile of the person you once loved. To feel alive again. To not feel... Alone anymore. To not feel trapped in your own mind. Overthinking and reminiscing about old times. To not feel the need to write things down because you have no one to turn too. I guess that's what I'm doing. Who am I writing this too though? Myself? Who's gonna read this? Am I just talking to myself? **** I don't even know where this is going anymore. Something is missing from my life right now... I don't know if it's something I used to have and need to find again. Or if it's something I've never had and I need to discover. I'm just... I guess... Lonely. Alone. Stuck in my head maybe... I don't know, whatever. I'm bored I guess. Why do I feel upset? I swear I just felt a lump in my throat and my eyes watered. lol. I think I need help. Do you need help? You... Reading this? ... Me? ... Yeah you. Hmm. Okay now I'm talking to myself for sure. I feel bad too... I lock myself away in my bedroom, I hardly leave it, I go get food and drink I come back I lock the door. I play music, I play games, I completely block out my family and the world. It's my happy place. But I don't think I'm happy. I don't feel wanted. I don't feel loved. I don't... I can't... What's the point? I don't even know anymore...
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I barely read this - trying to post before others jump in but i skimmed through, but there are multiple subreddits dedicated to self help, advice and suicide prevention if you think you need any of them. I feel that'd be better than here if this is legit.
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keep your head up man I was in a rut for the longest.
Just know there is only one life you get and you need to do the most with it. Travel the world, see all of the amazing sights. Sometimes it takes seeing something brand new. Ever since I saw the beach a few years ago on vacation.... Here I am living in Florida. and I love life now. I used to sit in my room all day long because I lost friends that weren't friends at all. I was even popular but that all ends instantly. I don't party so they don't wanna hang out xD Who needs some people. Most of them are just a drag
Just know there is only one life you get and you need to do the most with it. Travel the world, see all of the amazing sights. Sometimes it takes seeing something brand new. Ever since I saw the beach a few years ago on vacation.... Here I am living in Florida. and I love life now. I used to sit in my room all day long because I lost friends that weren't friends at all. I was even popular but that all ends instantly. I don't party so they don't wanna hang out xD Who needs some people. Most of them are just a drag
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Dang dude, you should get a dog. Man's best friend and will keep you occupied, going for long walks, etc etc. Will keep you busy for sure if you get a pup with training him and stuff.
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I never tried looking for any of them, I just came here and started writing down some thoughts. Maybe best if I just removed it, probably not the best topic for a gaming site.
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FarikoRevs wrote I never tried looking for any of them, I just came here and started writing down some thoughts. Maybe best if I just removed it, probably not the best topic for a gaming site.
open up note pad and type away my man (:
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Been so close to so many in the past. People that died that didn't deserve to die. That was my friends. Some I thought were my friends. That F***** me over, and I still would have done anything for them. Times change, People change. You have to adapt to that. I have said it before I have been to hell and back as far as this goes. Many people have. One incident took place 4 years ago that I will never forget for as long as I live. You have to move on. From whatever it is, You have to get over it and accept that things have changed. Regardless whether it was good, or bad. Move on.
How have I done it? I hardly have. I still think back to when I use to get drunk with all my "buddies" and pop Xannys. I still think about the people who I use to be really good friends with that have died, And didn't deserve it. All I can say in the simplest way is to find what makes you happy, If that means sitting in your room playing games all day, Then do it. Not forever Obviously, but it will help. Talk to someone, Go to a therapist. Do something. Don't post on TTG about it. Take action dude. We all have problems, bad memories, been F***** over, etc.
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How have I done it? I hardly have. I still think back to when I use to get drunk with all my "buddies" and pop Xannys. I still think about the people who I use to be really good friends with that have died, And didn't deserve it. All I can say in the simplest way is to find what makes you happy, If that means sitting in your room playing games all day, Then do it. Not forever Obviously, but it will help. Talk to someone, Go to a therapist. Do something. Don't post on TTG about it. Take action dude. We all have problems, bad memories, been F***** over, etc.
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While this may not be the right place to post this, I completely understand how you feel. You may not belive it but i honestly feel the exact same way and you really should see someone or tell someone. It'll help alot.
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Sounds like you need a complete change. I was in that rut of staying inside and playing games all day. I got a car and a surfboard and started to surf 4 hours a day instead of trying to get into a modded lobby of some sort 16 hours a day. If you change up your whole routine things will get better. If you think the way your body looks has anything to do with your problems then that can be fixed in less than a year.
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I apologize for the depressing post people. But I greatly appreciate the support everyone is giving. I really don't know what I want to hear, or what I want to do. But hearing you all sharing some brief stories of similar things you have went through/felt before is helping. I don't feel so alone when I know there are people all over the world.. complete strangers.. who are willing to take a few minutes out of there own time to speak to me. I don't speak to anyone about personal stuff.. I don't share my thoughts either. I guess it's easier for me to do that online, hiding behind a screen.
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