I understand that my dude, killing yourself isn't worth it though. Quite selfish actually, think of your family before yourself. Friends are replaceable, you aren't. Get out there and make some new friends!

Killing yourself is never the right option. If you need someone to talk to my inbox is always open. You just got to find some friends that like you for you and won't talk shit behind your back.

Hope everything gets better for you man.

Trust me you lose friends as you get older we are similar ages and the same shit happened with me but a few years ago.

loneliness is an emotion that can still be felt with 10+ friends.
I don't know if you are an extrovert or whatever but if you need to socialise to be happy then go do it. Go out and talk to random people.

If not just spend time by yourself. Read watch good soulful movies or learn something. A language or instrument etc.
If you still are wanting to kill yourself remember too contact the right people. Do research. Remember someone always loves you. You will affect more people than you realise so keep that in mind.
I'll be your friend if you want

Yeah telling yourself to KYS is a no no. Your own life doesn't to be treated like that. Having so much pressure in your life makes you a stronger person I believe. I lost a few friends were fake and not trusted it happens in real life, it sucks I know.

It's good you lost those friends, those are the type of people you DON'T want in your life. I wouldn't feel down about losing toxic friendships. Trust me my man, you'll find some better friends. Stay out of all that high school drama stuff, it'll all be meaningless in the future.

I wish you the best.

Yea I know how it feels to be in the situation you are in now. All you can do is make the best of your life. You don't need friends to make you happy. If your girlfriend makes you happy then that's all you need. Forget what other people are doing or thinking about you because at the end of the day, their opinions don't matter. It's how you see yourself

Here's the deal. Two years when you graduate, you won't see one of them. What ever they think of you now doesn't matter because the day you graduate, everything disappears. I never had that many friends, I dropped out of public school to do a virtual academy and only had like 2 or 3 friends, the rest of the people I talked to were over 30 years old because I used to work odd jobs.

If you only listen to one thing I say, screw the other kids and what they think. I'm over weight, I'm ugly, I'm pale white, but at the end of the day none of that matters. Yeah Jimmy makes fun of me in school and I hated it, no one ever likes being made fun of. What I started to realize is what does it matter? What can Jimmy do for me that I can't do myself? The answer was nothing, he brought nothing to further my life so as far as I was concerned, he was dead to me. If you can't do anything for me I can't do and you want to make fun of me, jump off a cliff for all I care, I don't care about you.

Yeah, it's mean, yeah it's selfish, but at the end of the day you are the only one who cares about you. Stop worrying about what everyone else thinks of you and start being the best you that you can be and that you like. One thing I found out is that once you get in that state of mind you start looking confident and girls like that. I'm still a pale white fat ugly dude, but I have a beautiful girl who would drop anything for me at any time. I don't know what she sees in me lol, but I'm doing something right.

One last thing I want to leave you on is just self preservation. You know what, you're in 10th grade, it sounds like you're not the popular guy on the block so believe it or not, you're a step ahead of the crowd. Get out there, get a job and start working. You're not leaving behind a social life, but you're making a ton of money and if you do odd jobs for random people like I did, you'll find job opportunities. The day I turned 18 I could have done a lot of things, because I got out there when I was young and started proving my worth and showing people what this young fat ugly kid has, I now travel the United States all paid for doing finish carpentry making 2.5x what my peers are making.

Thats a part of life man i hate it to but i deal with it

After high school you most likely wouldn't of been friends with them anyways.
Just forget about them and do you homie.