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#21. Posted:
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Yes I think about suicide daily, I have tried to end my life a good few times In-fact I tried to end my life a few days ago due to depression taking over me, My girlfriend saved my life if she wasn't there at the time she was I wouldn't of been here right now, She has saved me on various occasions it is all down to her why I am here today but I'm not going to get into any more details about any of that as it is not nice at all.

I try to put a smile on my face every single day to cover up what is really going on but it is hard to live life with these thoughts, I really wish I could stop thinking like that because I want to live as shit as life is.

I am going to get some help for my depression because it really does take over me and I cant handle it, You say how do you Deal with depression well above is my answer.
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when depression got too bad, yes a lot of times thinking ending it will get me out of it and how easy and painless suicide would be, but i looked past it and all the things in the future I would miss out on and beat it.
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Suicide I personally think is the selfish, everyone goes through stuff and there is always someone out there worse of than you.

I've tried and luckily enough I failed, my girlfriend from 12-16(4 years together) cheated on me while in ireland with her family with the people's house she was staying ins son.

First I just felt pure anger and rage towards her, wished death upon her which I now completely regret and it was out of line. Then the hurt stage came along I just felt empty inside, I had no drive in anything I was doing outcasting myself from my family.

Then one day I decided I had enough I just felt worthless and no point in being here anymore, so I took handful of sleeping tablets and went to the swimming bathes that were local, and found a dark spot away from the flumes and stuff so it wasn't busy and just waited hoping I would just fall asleep and drown.

They weren't working so I decided I'd walk back to the locker take more and return and as soon as I left the water I just got hit with a wall of drowsyness and began stumbling and collapsed, woke up in hospital with my mum and younger brother at my side.

Bit of a touchy subject so I'll stop there but suicide is not the right way to deal with things that is for sure.

Now I think back and laugh at how weak minded I was like just a girl cheating on me drove me to do that when there's people out there suffering who still keep hope and fight to live.

Life is honestly a gift and we should make the most of every single day here cause today could be our last.
#24. Posted:
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I have anxiety, depression, etc. Most of the time, I have it because of the life I lived growing up.
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When I was 10-12

Let's just say my family wasn't a family and I've been through a lot because of it.
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A few years ago I used to get bullied in school at the age of about 14-15, I used to get called fat and other names. As I was upset about this I instantly thought "wow I'm depressed" (as a kid) and I wanted to die, but then I realised, what happens if I kill myself, it's not really me who suffers it's my friends and family!

As then I was still upset but I didn't really want to die, I didn't want to cause anyone pain. I spoke to my head teacher about it who was my "Form Teacher" (UK) for the past 3 years and he was the PE teacher also. He signed me up for the rugby team, and honestly it helped, it helped me relieve the anger that I was holding in, but I did still feel down, then at the age of 15 I met my girlfriend, we were good friends for a very long time and then at the age of 17 we both wanted to take things a little further and started our relationship which to this day is till going on! She has helped me feel happy and good within myself.

(Note) to the people saying their parents don't like them, don't be silly, they are your parents they adore you even if they don't show it!
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Yeah :*(
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I had a failed OD attempt 4 years ago and thank god, i got professional help & help from my family, i SPOKE about my problems and got my life back on track, 4 years on, i have a beautiful GF and im due my first son on August. It wasn't easy but now i look back, all the hard work has paid off. If you have problems, TALK to someone close, trust me. Its a sensitive subject, but i gets to me when i hear about other people attempting etc.
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Errr to an extent a few times but if i was ever gonna do it i wouldnt do it myself id do it in a fun way for example rob a bank if you succeed great fly to the Caribbean and enjoy life for however long, if you dont you potentially get shot and killed by a cop.

But no not to the point where i was looking for ways to kill myself.
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